Wanting to Matter...

To Matter, by definition, means "to be of importance; signify" (dictionary.com). I cannot recall how many times in my 22 years that I have felt "unimportant" or completely INsignificant. Some days it hits you more than others. Like when you watch a you-tuber showing off their "how-to's" and look incredible then when you try you think...why can't I just get it like theirs? Or when you are having a very drab day and feel completely useless on your job. How about when it's just one thing after another, after another, and you can't find a break.

Then comes... DUN DUN DUN!! .... the sad face :(

It's pretty easy to get down when you feel like this. It's almost like a an instant, figurative punch to the emotional button. It's like BAM instantly depressed, and suddenly your day is just terrible. Why is it like that? I mean sure, you take a punch and you feel a little sore from it, you don't K.O. on the first round...Right?

So right now I am broke (except for the money that goes into my gas tank, which puts me at $0), No money for presents or to go anywhere, exhausted, feeling pretty useless at my job, and I could go on. However, to keep you guys from thinking "how utterly pathetic", I won't. The point is, I have so many reasons of why I should stay down and lick my wounds, which means I need to find something to counter-act all of the bad I'm feeling right now.

EXAMPLE UNO!

So I'm feeling useless at my job... at least I have one and know that If I have work to do, you bet your bottom dollar that I'm going to do it (no one else might think so, but that's how I roll). At least I have the assurance of knowing that I know.

EXAMPLE DOS!
I'm broke like a joke and no money to go ANYWHERE or do ANYTHING! Some things you just can't do anything about. Why continue to be miserable over them. I mean, I HATE feeling all down and depressed.... it's depressing. So... time to put on your big girl/boy panties and get over it. Find something fun to do at home, even if it is just actually talking to the person next to you!

In conclusion... sometimes life just sucks. You just have to learn to deal with it and remember all of the things that could make it much worse, and then it doesn't look as bad! :)