Butterfly Overload

It is exactly 9 days until my wedding, and only a rare few of you know exactly what starts going through a Bride's head this close to the wedding. I mean, if you think about it, look at all the things that are about to change:

#1: My Last Name
#2: I'm moving out of what has been my home for YEARS
#3: I'm leaving my safety nets (parents lol)
#4:I'm going to be sharing a bed and bathroom again (BIIGG feat for me... and him too I guess ha-ha)

I'm sure I could go on, but thinking about it all, plus all that I got to do, PLUS all of the attention that's going to be on me, can be a little overwhelming. I'm not a person who loves to be center of attention; opening presents in front of an audience is NOT fun for me.

Anyways... Today I've been focused on typing up the Ceremony Agenda, the Arrivals and Pictures of who, what, when, and where, finding someone to do my hair for the wedding. I probably should find the hairpiece I want as well ;)

I want to send a special thanks to my friend Megan and her mother for finding the earrings I wanted for my wedding!!!

I also want to send a special thanks to my Sister... I couldn't have done any of this without you and Mom. You put up with all my worrying, and bickering, and you are just always there. No matter how far away you live, you will always be my very best friend! # RachelJohnson!

Making a List and Checking it Twice!

 My wedding is exactly one week and three days away. You can imagine all of the stuff that is going through my mind. I mean, not only do I have to think of all the things I have to get done for the wedding, but also all the things for the honeymoon, PLUS packing up all of my stuff at my parents house to move in with my soon to be hubby. So, what better way to stay organized and be prepared for this extremely crazy week ahead, than to make LIST!

I literally made four list, typed them out on word, and somehow fit them all amazingly on ONE page. So not only am I super duper organized, I'm saving trees. That makes me awesome! (LOL jk, seriously).

I generally make a list for everything. Every time I have to buy personal items, groceries, pack, etc., I usually make a list for it. So Today here is my Awesomest list to all of my other List-ers! Ha-ha! TTFN (Ta-Ta For Now)!!! :)

The EYE!

As the end of October rolls around, the scent of fall starts infiltrating the atmosphere leaving you with that absolute need to do something fall-ish. What better way to get into the fall spirit than carving out a pumpkin. Oh yeah!

Most of you are probably like, "yeah, yeah... carving a pumpkin. Been there done that". Well this was my very first year EVER carving out a pumpkin, and I got to share my pumpkin-carving experience with the love of my life!!!

(It was his first pumpkin-carving experience too!)

Most people in our "religion" don't believe in this and don't agree with it, and that's cool. Everyone has their own standards and convictions on things. However, I don't feel like I'm going to go to hell for this.

Back to my experience...

I told Wade, (My fiance), that I wanted to carve a pumpkin. So, he bought us a pumpkin carving kit then took me to buy the pumpkin and Saturday night we carved our first pumpkin.

The first cutting of the pumpkin!

Two thumbs up for me ALMOST eating the pumpkin!  lol

It's actually a lot harder than it looks!

Love the whole "one eye" thing... goes with our pumpkin! :)

Finished Product! Pretty good for first timers!

Bestest EYE ever!!!!!

Wanting to Matter...

To Matter, by definition, means "to be of importance; signify" (dictionary.com). I cannot recall how many times in my 22 years that I have felt "unimportant" or completely INsignificant. Some days it hits you more than others. Like when you watch a you-tuber showing off their "how-to's" and look incredible then when you try you think...why can't I just get it like theirs? Or when you are having a very drab day and feel completely useless on your job. How about when it's just one thing after another, after another, and you can't find a break.

Then comes... DUN DUN DUN!! .... the sad face :(

It's pretty easy to get down when you feel like this. It's almost like a an instant, figurative punch to the emotional button. It's like BAM instantly depressed, and suddenly your day is just terrible. Why is it like that? I mean sure, you take a punch and you feel a little sore from it, you don't K.O. on the first round...Right?

So right now I am broke (except for the money that goes into my gas tank, which puts me at $0), No money for presents or to go anywhere, exhausted, feeling pretty useless at my job, and I could go on. However, to keep you guys from thinking "how utterly pathetic", I won't. The point is, I have so many reasons of why I should stay down and lick my wounds, which means I need to find something to counter-act all of the bad I'm feeling right now.

EXAMPLE UNO!

So I'm feeling useless at my job... at least I have one and know that If I have work to do, you bet your bottom dollar that I'm going to do it (no one else might think so, but that's how I roll). At least I have the assurance of knowing that I know.

EXAMPLE DOS!
I'm broke like a joke and no money to go ANYWHERE or do ANYTHING! Some things you just can't do anything about. Why continue to be miserable over them. I mean, I HATE feeling all down and depressed.... it's depressing. So... time to put on your big girl/boy panties and get over it. Find something fun to do at home, even if it is just actually talking to the person next to you!

In conclusion... sometimes life just sucks. You just have to learn to deal with it and remember all of the things that could make it much worse, and then it doesn't look as bad! :)